Meet Zach Sobiech | My Last Days

By | September 10, 2019


Reporter: Zach can’t stop writing lyrics,
there are so many songs he wants to leave behind with only months to live. His song
called “Clouds” was born. [“Clouds”] Zach: Like every teenager out there feels invincible and they’ll never admit it and
it’s not the kind of invincible like Superman, it’s the kind of invincible like “I’ll see
you in five months.” I thought I was invincible. I was ready for college pretty much and I
was planning out way ahead and yeah, turns out sometimes you can’t do that.
Zach: My name is Zach Sobiech, I’m seventeen years old and I have osteosarcoma. I’ve been
told I have a few months to live but I still have a lot of work to do.
I want everyone to know, you don’t have to find out you’re
dying to start living. Zach: You know most people live kind of in the middle between dream come true and you’re
dying. And it’s a very comfortable place to live. I’m living on two extreme ends so you
have really really good days and you have
really really bad days. Laura: Zach has always been
incredibly empathetic and compassionate. This basketball game I
was kind of laughing about how one of the players had kind of a funny run and he goes
yeah but he’s really good at and he listed all these things and I thought he’s just always
looking for the good in people and I think he’s taught all of us that’s how it’s done.
Alli: I would say that Zach is a testament to the fact that things are okay when you
believe in something greater than yourself in the world.
Rob: You can be with Zach and just by sitting there with him feel better. He’s got, I don’t
know how to describe it, he’s got this aura about him.
Zach: What makes you happy, is seeing someone else smile because you put it there. That’s
what is awesome about living in this world. It’s that you can help people. Zach: I like the structure of our family with two guys, two girls for the kids and mom and
dad. Because it kind of evens everything out. Laura: Grace has always been his baby.
Grace: Zach is like the other half of me. All we need is to be there like in the same
room with each other and that’s enough for us! Thinking about my life about Zach, it’s
really hard to think about that. I really get sick to my stomach when I think about
it. Laura: Zach had been going through the eighth
grade and he and his sister decided to go for a run and he came back from the run and
told me “mom, my left hip hurts.” So we went in for an MRI and at this point still I’m
thinking, cancer was still not on my radar at all. Zach: They went in and
found out that it was cancer. It was osteosarcoma. And it was so
unbelievable honestly. Grace: I was upstairs in the kitchen. And
I just went upstairs and I cried. And I just said I got to live life like
Zach is going to die tomorrow. Zach: My mom walked in on me once when I was
lying on the ground because I didn’t want to associate my bed with being sick.
Laura: Five days after he finished chemotherapy. He had his routine CT scan of his chest and
they found tumors in both lungs. Laura: She told us six months to a year.
Zach: I just didn’t understand that. Like it didn’t make any sense to me.
Laura: We did have an option of surgery but that would me they’d have to take his left
leg and half of his pelvis and he wouldn’t even be able to sit up. That’s when we got
to the point where we have to make decisions about quality of life.
Zach: With the hospital, it’s the most sterile place in the world, but you just do not feel
clean there at all and it was tough being there because you felt totally disconnected.
Laura: He decided, I don’t want to be in the hospital all the time, I want to be out with
friends, I don’t want to feel sick, and I want to be home. Rob: In the house like this where we have six people and four kids part of the time
I enjoy Zach is just when we’re alone, just sitting there. We could be watching movies,
we could be talking cars or whatever. Laura: Zach likes to dream big so he kind
of got into cars and car magazines and stuff and that was one thing he would do in the
hospital. Zach: I would sort through the cards and be
like which one is the least expensive but has the highest performance. Nissan GTR is
like, it’s perfect! I’ve dreamt of that car for years. Laura: So we have a little tiny surprise for you. Zach: I don’t like surprises. Laura: Oh I think you’re going to like this
one. Zach: Holy crap! Are you serious?
Laura: You get to drive it for a week! Grace: You’re driving me places!
Rob: Hey Zach, what’s up! You like that? Pretty impressive huh?
Rob: The look on his face was so cool and when Zach lights up, it makes everyone happy!
Zach: It’s like being dunked in cold water and not being able to breathe but in a really
good way. Rob: It wasn’t the car, it was the experience
the car created and the joy that Zach received from driving it and the joy I received from
being with Zach when he got to drive it! Zach: Being able to experience these things,
it helps a lot because you can either sit in your basement and wait or you can get out
there and do some crazy stuff. Laura: When we found the cancer in his pelvis,
they said you know, maybe you should start writing some letters.
Zach: Music is a way I can express myself without having to burden everyone else.
Laura: I was cleaning up downstairs and there was a lot of paper laying around with different
scribblings on it and I picked one up and I read it and it was Clouds! Laura: Sammy and Zach have been dear friends for many many years. They are songwriters
together, that’s how they communicate with each other.
Sammy: Our musical thing its like really becoming something and it has become a part of us.
There’s going to be nobody like him to do it with again and that’s going to be really
hard. Zach: I find that with my situation it is
almost harder to become the other end. I have closure and she won’t have closure. Sammy: There are very very very few people
who I love as much as I love Zach. Zach: My closure is being able to get my feelings into these songs, so they could have something
to remember me by or lean on when I was gone. Laura: For me it’s Zach’s way of saying “I’m okay.”
And saying goodbye and I’m just so grateful it’s there because I’m going to need it later.
Sam: His music is kind of like a record of how much eh cares for us.
Grace: There’s this song that he wrote about me, “For My Grace” so I’ll keep that always
with me, constantly. Grace: I love you!
Zach: I love you too Grace! Saying that for like the first time ever!
[off camera]: Is it really? Zach: Pretty much. Yeah she’s pretty cool! Zach: I think with my diagnosis, we’ve become a better and stronger family. We all love
each other just that much more because when you go through stuff like that you go through
it together. Sam: You have to stick together as a family,
I mean that’s imperative because we’ve always been there since Zach was first diagnosed.
We’ve been there as a family, we’re all together and we have to make it through as a family
together. Alli: How will I remember my brother. Happy,
always smiling, and always limping around with his funny little walk. That’s as simple
as it is, happy I guess. Zach: My friends, I don’t know if they’ve
accepted me being terminal or not. They know that if they just treat me the same everything
will be fine honestly. Friend 1: He’s someone you can trust is going
to be smiling the next day despite his condition. Friend 2: He’s kind of just like a light in
the school. If I have a bad day it’s not actually really a bad day if I’m just complaining about
something. It’s all about perspective I think. Friend 1: He will always live on in my life.
The values he has taught me, memories we’ve had, they are so ingrained in who I am as
a person. Laura: Amy, she’s a smart girl. We knew he
was terminal when they started dating and she knew that. She sat down with her mom and
talked through it and what they decided was would you date him if he didn’t have cancer
and she said yeah. She has really helped him through some hard times.
Zach: One of our first dates was we planned a picnic just in a park somewhere.
Amy: I knew he was going in for scans that day.
Zach: We get the results back and my doctor walks in and she’s pretty quiet and she looks
pretty serious and it’s like well it can’t be that bad I mean come on. And she goes,
“So you’ve got a collapsed lung.” I’m like “Oh, okay.”
Amy: I broke down crying because it was like the first time it was real that he had cancer.
Because before it was, everything seemed normal. Zach: It was like cool can I at least go to
the picnic and then come back and have surgery, and they were like no we need to do this now.
Laura: He was so devastated because all he cared about was getting to that date.
Zach: I was pretty angry that I had to miss the picnic because who doesn’t like a good
picnic, it’s awesome, stupid lung. Amy: Good morning!
We’re not going to school today! Zach: Where are we going?
Amy: I’ll tell you. Zach: I don’t know where we’re going!
Amy: Just start driving, I’ll tell you! Zach: I almost burst into tears just because
it was so perfect. Picnic basket for cold pizza which pretty much defines our relationship
right there. Amy: We know what we both would want in our
future. We know that we love each other just the same amount. Well we talked about getting
married and having kids and our jobs, we do that a lot when we have bad days, so like
when we start to cry. That’s when we sit down and plan it all out.
Zach: We would have three or four kids, we haven’t decided yet. But I kind of want four
because you can have two boys and two girls then because that’s what we had in our family,
it worked out pretty well so. It’s one of those things that, it’s like your ultimate
dream kind of thing, so most people just ignore it or most people think “I don’t know if it
will happen” and you know mine obviously probably won’t. Amy: I think the moment I’m most scared about is leaving the hospital after he’s gone and
knowing that he’s not coming with. And having to walk out of there. Zach: I will actually love her to death,
to my death. That’s the thing it’s like why not
get married because you know, till death do us part and I’m dying so we better get on
this, that kind of thing but yeah I do love her to death, and I will, forever! Justin: Okay Sobiech family,
everyone come downstairs! So I’m Justin and I’m a director
and we’re here making a little documentary about your amazing family member and I came
here and I was expecting to meet a great kid who had a cool YouTube video and was inspiring,
but I was not expecting to meet a seventeen year old that would change my life. So when
I first contacted your mom I told her I wanted to make a music video for you, which we just
unfortunately couldn’t do. But what I was able to do was reach out to a few people and
I just told them your story and I told them I just wanted to do something for you because
you’ve done so much for us. What resulted was something very special. I just want you
to know, this stuff is not happening because you’re dying, it’s really because of the way
you’re living. I just want you to know that. Amy: You can just tell that they all love
Zach’s story and admire him so much and it was amazing to see.
Grace: He was in awe, like he couldn’t believe it and none of us could! Zach: The most bizarre thing I think I’ve ever seen, craziest feeling in the world!
Sammy: Seeing everybody who loves him at the end, it made me cry.
Zach: It really makes you want to keep on going. Zach: Aw Grace! Grace you’ve been my best friend for fourteen years. We’ve done so much
together and it’s going to be tough going but you have to keep being strong. You got
to kick some butt on the basketball court too and take them to the championship.
Zach: Sam, you’ve been the best big brother anyone could ever ask for. You’ve given me
so much knowledge. You have helped me through so much and I think it is, it’s important you know
that I love you because being guys I don’t think we say it too much,
but I do love you so much. Zach: Alli, squeeze from the back of the toothpaste
bottle. I’m going to miss you so much because you’ve always kept me strong in my faith and
everything. Zach: Mom and Dad, best parents anyone could
ask for I could only wish that I could have kids and raise them like you raised me because
you did one hell of a job. You’re the best parents anyone could ever ask for. I love
both of you so much and thank you for being my parents. Zach: Life is really just beautiful moments, one right after the other. All of these experiences
were super super cool. All of them are giving me a little bit more closure on everything
and kind of accepting everything a little bit more. Amy: He’s shown me that it’s not all about the grades you get or how cool you are in
high school, it’s about doing what makes you happy and no matter when you’re going to go,
to live life to the fullest everyday. Zach: It’s really simple actually, it’s just
try and make people happy. Maybe you have to learn with time, maybe you have to learn
it the hard way, but as long as you learn it you’re going to make the world a better
place. Laura: I think that’s actually one of the
blessings of cancer is that you kind of come out of denial and so in doing that, things
are better! That life is richer, everything means more, beauty is more beautiful, he’s a beautiful person
and I’m so happy to have been Zach Sobiech’s mom. Zach: Death is just another thing on the agenda kind of. Yeah it’s scary but the only reason
it’s scary is because you don’t know what’s next or if there is a next, so it’s kind of
like sitting in the dark. So you can either choose to be freaking out in the dark and
thinking okay what’s out there or you can just relax and fall asleep and just be happy
and content with everything. Zach: I want to be remembered as a kid who
went down fighting and didn’t really lose.

78 thoughts on “Meet Zach Sobiech | My Last Days

  1. Jackie Husein Post author

    ❤ We love you Zach. ❤ You have inspired countless ❤ billions, changing the world beautifully ❤

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  2. Cheeky Devil Post author

    Even though I never met you in person, after watching this video and the one created a year after your death, I feel like I know you so well, and while you don’t know it, you made such a huge difference in my life. Thing is, while you were going to that I was in the hospital too, I’ve been battling Crohn’s disease and intestinal cancer since I was 20, I’m now 50. I’ve had 37 surgeries, I was clinically dead for two minutes after my colon ruptured when I was 21, which was also when they saw the cancer growing on the outside of my large intestine. I was given a 5% chance The first time, then a 10% chance the second time, and a third relapse of cancer less than 5% chance, which was when I started to watch your videos, and the inspiration you gave me to keep fighting as hard as I could and not give up is the reason why am still alive. Although I am now missing 95% of my entire G.I. tract, and I still have to go for more surgery, you inspired me so much, I just wish to God there was a way I could sync you in person, but all I can do is thank you on the Internet. During that time that I was dead for two minutes, I had a near death experience, and despite what people may think, it was real and it does exist, so I know that you’re in a better place, a place filled with so much joy, love, and happiness, which makes me happy. But still to be struck down at such a young age breaks my heart, and I asked myself why was I allowed to live, While you were taken from us? I’ll never know the answer to that question, all I can tell you is that I try my very best to share my story with everybody, praying that somehow I’ll be able to help people the way you did, to show them that there is life after the hospital, and another what the doctor say there is always hope. Cancer is a funny thing, there’s no way of knowing which way it’s going to go, can you find hope in the smallest of achievements, but in the end, regardless if you survive or not, it makes you so much stronger, and appreciate things that most people take for granted. I just know you’re in heaven looking down upon all the people you love, as they look up towards you, knowing that in the end you’ll all be together again, brings me so much joy. Thank you for everything that you are, miss you buddy, I just pray that when my time comes I get the chance to meet you on the other side, until then, I’m sure Heaven is a lot happier place now that you’re there, take care and God bless!

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  3. UMblue83 Post author

    These cancer stories sadden and sicken me because there is a great chance of a real cure through natural and alternative treatments!

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  4. Sequoia Sanders Post author

    His smile alone just makes me happy… R.I.P beautiful boy

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  5. seni Zeravat Post author

    I am speechless! May his soul Rest In Peace! 😭

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  6. Bhavani Balaji Post author

    Justin has got to stop doing this to me. I cry during every single my last days documentary 😭😭😭

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  7. benjamin christian Post author

    It pierces my heart when I see all this things. I wonder when people will start turning to God for their healing instead of filming their last days. This is so crazy. Aren't no Bible believing Holy ghost Churches in America? When will the world change and start turning to God for their solutions instead of believing this so called doctors?

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  8. benjamin christian Post author

    Death isnt scary if you die with Jesus!

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  9. christine tanner Post author

    June 2019 watching Rip sweetheart 🙏

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  10. Jana Kujawa Post author

    What an awesome young man. My daughter had cancer when she was 16. We didn't know if she would make it because she had a very aggressive cancer. Burkitts lymphoma. We had many scary experiences and she made it. She is now 37 and has chronic health issues from the cancer and we are so blessed.

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  11. Tasha W. Post author

    What a sweet young man! If only we all lived this way!

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  12. Cpmf Feilberg Post author

    I survived brain cancer at 16 years old, was given 2 weeks to live and I'm looking forward to retiring in 8 years. I've had several cancer surgeries to maintain but I'm in a remission I pray for all cancer patients to achieve. My condolences to you to your family and may he R.I.P .

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  13. Lissette’s Bloom Post author

    He must have Jesus in his life, because he lights up a room.! I hope he New heaven is next.

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  14. Ayako Ayako Post author

    Here in 2019. This made me cry 💔Watching these stories really reminds you what is really important in life. ❤️ Rest peacefully Zach

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  15. Amber Cavaco Post author

    Such an inspiration…. crying my eyes out! You are an amazing soul ❤

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  16. Yvette Archer Post author

    He was so courageous strong very strong when he joked and said stupid lung I felt so bad I wanted him to have that picnic smh so sad he went on fighting

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  17. Chels Mill-With Post author

    What a beautifully touching story, such a beautiful soul, wish I got the chance to meet this lovely young man, he seemed like such a vibrant being 💖⚘

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  18. GorgeouslyReal T.V. Post author

    Hey Zach! I'm Kiara… You'd really love the advancements of Nissan now in 2019. I know you passed on but I'm sure you're even more alive in the spiritual realm!

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  19. CVlogs Post author

    How many people are still sobbing in 2019? Rest In Peace, Zach ❤️

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  20. Dana14me Hettinger Post author

    I'm sad .it sounds like he didnt know Jesus. how terribly sad.

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  21. zee k Post author

    This is heart 💔💔 💔 it's so hard for the sisters and brothers. My parents have seven kids . Brother number four got diagnosed with cancer and it ruined our happy home . Ten years later still battling and we are still crying and praying for his health 🙏🙏🙏 watching this young man sick and then gone just breaks my heart even more . God bless his soul

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  22. C. Kirk Post author

    You ARE Beautiful Zach ❤️💋 You have changed so many peoples life for the better sweet soul ❤️

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  23. Caro Leota Post author

    BE BLESSED AND ENJOY LIFE WHILE U HAVE A CHANCE. THIS BRINGS TEARS, HEY I LOVE MUSIC
    U WILL ENJOY THE SWEET MUSIC IN UR DESTINY. MAY BE UR FLIIGHT WILL BE TODAY AND MINE WILL IN 5 MIN.

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  24. Nate Riddlesprigger Post author

    Thank you for sharing you with all of us. Won't forget this one!

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  25. Patrick Clark Post author

    Can someone please help me find out what the name of the song that starts at 8:38?

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  26. Caroline Crawford Post author

    This is a lovely story about a young man's journey & is inspirational. It is not the whole story & actually is a disservice to the Stage 4 cancer community at large. It doesn't show the actual face of living with Metastatic cancer of any variety in a balanced light. The fighting with insurance companies to get treatment, the progression of disease and all the things that are robbed from your life, the friends that drop you, the toll it takes on family members emotionally & financially. The crippling depression that is a constant struggle living on the edge of death knowing that whatever quality of life you have will only be stripped away until your most basic activities of life are not able to be performed without artificial means. This is a packaged version of the life of cancer & not a complete picture for the majority who walk this road.

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  27. Natasha Nicholls Post author

    Love Him, and that awesomely beautiful smile!!!!

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  28. Ashley Masion Post author

    You don't have to find out your dying, to start living. That made my heart stop. I am so grateful to have listened and watch Zach. I wish I could have met him but apart of me feels like I have. God bless him and his family. Talk about being humble. 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

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  29. Ashley Masion Post author

    He has changed my life and may he rest in peace. Heaven sent.

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  30. Slimy Friends Post author

    We all miss u zach we all love u we will all see u on the other side brother

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  31. Aviebizzydfreak6 Post author

    Everytime I think about suicide, I come back to this video and just cry my eyes out.

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  32. Anna McGee Post author

    I was holding my tears back but when he started the letters to his siblings I absolutely lost it

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  33. Marsha Couturier Post author

    Watching this in june 2019 and I am sobbing like a crazy person, R.I.P Zach..

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  34. Jenna Denjern Post author

    I love my baby brother so incredibly much it makes my chest hurt. The thought of him losing him so tragically makes me feel so painfully and immensely broken and lost. I don't think I could ever recover.

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  35. Solar Heavy Post author

    I've watched 3 of these now, and they all involved music so deeply, I'm a musician and this just inspires me to really keep trying to give back through music, however I can. Thank you so much for your story and passion in life Zach.

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  36. Teresa D'Alessio Post author

    I'm hysterically crying. Once they got in the car, I lost it. What a beautiful boy and family.

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  37. Teresa D'Alessio Post author

    I just cant stop crying. I'm just so sorry he had to go thru it. His family is incredible.

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  38. Raquel F Post author

    Why is YouTube recommending this to me, why are you playing with my heart like this? 😭

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  39. Clark Kent Post author

    This was so sad and inspiring, what an angel.

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  40. Muthoni Kamiri Post author

    Thanks zach for making me see life in a different perception. Rest in peace

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  41. Michael R. Post author

    It was very nice to watch one of these videos and not hear the person ramble on about a fictional god. This young man was not only tough as nails, but very intelligent, had a ton of common sense and was realistic. Very tragic. No one should have to go through that. Nor should any parent ever have to bury their child. How anyone can actually believe in god is beyond my comprehension. Open your eyes people….live in reality. As this video shows us, life is too short..way too short to live clouded by delusion. Embrace reality. Believe in yourself..not some fictional god.

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  42. MrTLinSTL Post author

    Amy was banging a new guy within the first year. women are temporary.

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  43. TheCannonator 2019 Post author

    Does anyone happen to know how the family is doing? I didn't know them but would have liked to, just for extra support, etc.! I hope his family and friends are doing well!

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  44. That Roblox Life Post author

    Who’s cutting onions!!!!!!!!Rip Zach

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  45. BlueberrySweetie Post author

    So many good people are being taken away but what they left with us will stay forever yous will never be forgotten R. I. P❤️

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  46. starlight Drizow Post author

    It's heartbreaking for me because I knew him not only through his hit. Zach went to the same high school as I did. Even though he had graduated the year before I did. It was really tough hearing that he'd passed away. I remember reading a book that his mother wrote it made me hold back tears. By the end of the book I cried super hard.

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  47. heyitsclaire Post author

    "I think the moment I'm most scared about is leaving the hospital when he's gone and knowing that he's not coming with."
    OMG THAT'S SO SADDDDD

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  48. Cheeky Devil Post author

    I have watched this dozens of times, and it makes me cry every single time, and even though he’s long gone, his spirit is alive and so many people thanks to this video, and to his mother who immortalized his life in the book that she wrote about his battle with cancer.

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  49. Ricardo Ramirez Post author

    I still think about Zach all the time. I listen to Clouds often because this video and his memory pop up out of nowhere.

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  50. Bella KI Post author

    Was a great kid… Lots of love from Kenya (RIP) Zac….

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  51. Robert F. Davis Post author

    Hospitals are sterile- but they're full of disease, sickness, germs! I don't blame him for not wanting to be there

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  52. deanna kinsman Post author

    I always come back to Zach to remind myself that on my worst days it's NOTHING compared to his courage to live each day like it's your last day!!! RIP ZACH…💙🌟🌺🌷

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  53. Jackie Husein Post author

    ❤ Sweet Zach went down fighting and ❤ didn't really lose. Zach won with the world and ❤ and won with ❤ God most ❤ definitely. ❤ I love Zach and his entire beautiful beautiful ❤ family. ❤

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  54. Jackie Husein Post author

    ❤ I so love the Sobiech family. ❤ So precious, beautiful, and real. ❤ So unselfish, even in the face of ❤ adversity. ❤ We miss you so much Zach, and ❤ We have a San that you surely met!! ❤ I can't wait to ❤ be with y'all in heaven cause it's ❤ So beautiful beyond words. ❤ Of course I will wait for you when my ❤ earthly time is up. Cherish every moment ❤ with me in the meantime just as Zach and our Zak both did and ❤ still continue to ❤ do.

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  55. Cheeky Devil Post author

    I must’ve watch this a dozen times already, but I don’t know why. Maybe it’s because he shows such courage in the face of such adversity, or maybe it’s because I can relate in a way unlike most others can’t, having fought cancer three times myself already, and barely surviving. Maybe it’s because I live with 11 chronic illnesses, first in for most was Crohn’s disease, that led to a ruptured colon, when they found the cancer, and my life, as it were, ended, and the new life began, one which I was not prepared for. I’m 50 now, but I was only 20 when I was first diagnosed, and 21 when I first had cancer, and after 37 operations over at 29 years span, Zack’s story resonates with me to my very core. I think God every day that I’m still here. I did die once for two minutes when my intestines ruptured, and nearly died twice more on the operating table, and the fact that my oncologist gave me very slim chances of survival all three times I relapsed, at 5%, then10%, then 5% again, I was certain it was over, but for whatever reason I was chosen to stay alive. Of course I thought against it, I fought like hell, I did everything I could to stay alive, but not for the reasons you’re thinking. I didn’t fight for myself, I knew that it would absolutely devastate my parents, whom I am still so very lucky to have a life and in my life, I knew it would devastate my husband and my son, my sister, and all the other friends and family I love so dearly. I fought for them, because I did not want to be the reason they were so upset. I never actually told them about the odds of survival, I just couldn’t dump that much pressure on someone who was already struggling to cope with my situation. But there are many blessings to cancer and chronic illnesses, because it is true that life becomes richer, the smaller things mean more, and the things everyone worries about don’t matter whatsoever. In the beginning I wasn’t very spiritual, I am now, as I literally say my prayers every day of my life, I always tell the Lord how grateful I am for each day, and also that I except the fact that I have absolutely no control over when I go, as I leave that in his hands. My faith has got me through some very difficult times, time is it I just wanted to give up and stop fighting because it hurt so bloody much, during the times that I would cry myself to sleep every night and wake up in tears. Everything that I’ve just said is the reason why I am so inspired by watching this video, I love the entire series, but this one in particular for whatever reason, hits home so hard, I turn into a blubbering mess every time I watch it, but in a good way, because after the tears stop I always feel better afterwards, because I firmly believe that we do go on, and that death is not an ending, and it is not goodbye. Death is only a transition to the next stage of existence, and is merely, until we meet again. I know that because when I died for those two minutes I had a near death experience, and saw my grandfather died when I was eight years old. I won’t get into all of it, just because it’s too difficult to explain if you short paragraphs, but I promise you that there is life waiting for us after this life, and those that we love you have passed on having never really left us. I know it was not a dream, it was not a hallucination, it was real, my grandfather told me that he has been watching over me all of my life, and that he would continue to do so until my Time finally came. He also told me that he wasn’t alone, that he and my grandmother, along with all of my uncles and aunts, and all of my deceased family members, we’re with me 24/7, doing everything they can to keep me safe. And then I’m forced to wonder, is that why I survived all those times when the doctors were absolutely baffled as to how I survived? Science can only go so far, but after that, the only thing left is faith, and my faith is strong. So while I still cry when I lose a loved one, I am greatly comforted in knowing that they’re moving on to a much better place, a place filled with nothing but the purest love, joy, happiness, contentment, peace, and every other wonderful emotion you could absolutely imagine. Dare I say I can’t wait to go back, because my daily life is a struggle, living with less than 5% of your entire gastrointestinal tract is not easy to say the least. Taking more pills than most single citizens do, it’s not funny either, but despite it all, I am beyond grateful that I’m still here, so that I can be there for those that I love when their time comes. I’ve always believe everything happens for a reason, and I believe I was put through all this so that I could pass on the knowledge that I have learned from my experiences to help other people, and so that I can be there to help my family, especially my wonderful parents, who are now in their late 80s, and are beginning to struggle. I think God every day that I’m able to be there to help them, especially because I was adopted at nine months old, they saved my life more ways than I can count, and no amount of help and love I give could ever repay everything they’ve done for me. There is such a thing that goes far beyond love, I feeling so powerful that there is no one word to describe it, that’s exactly what I feel towards my parents, my husband and my son, and my sister. If I can’t be there for them, then my life would’ve been pointless, but now that I’m still alive and able to be there, it was worthwhile, and I do it all over again if I had to, because even the worst of things can lead to something wonderful. God bless and thanks for listening.

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  56. Cindy Semblante Post author

    Zach you are inspiring and amazing. You blessed to love and be loved. Keep 😃

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  57. Cheyenne castillo Post author

    The invincible quote has been stuck in my head for 6 years such a true statement

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  58. starlight Drizow Post author

    I went to school with him. He had such a positive outlook on life and positive attitude. I miss you Zach. You were such an inspiration to people at Stillwater High School. It was heartbreaking:( It's even more heartbreaking to know you are gone. You don't have to know you are dying to start living. Miss you so much bud

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  59. Nicole Shultz Post author

    Wow! This episode was truly Zach's goodbye. He passed away 17 days after this was published on YouTube. RIP Zach. Warm wishes to his loved ones.

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  60. grnman86 Post author

    Who the heck would ever dislike this ? I think I cried 15 times during this! What a nice guy he was, always saw the positive, and he didn't get his illness get him down. He's an inspiration to keep going, keep fighting this horrible sickness that takes such good people from their loved ones.

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  61. Rita Akiki Post author

    Justin Baldoni, I love youuuu…

    A movie about Zach is in the making named "Clouds"
    I can already tell how good its gonna be
    And its the best way to honor Zach…

    Rest in peace you beautiful person

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  62. Julie Delahooke Post author

    Came here as soon as I found out they’re making a movie about him, and I’m crying again. Such a beautiful story

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  63. The End is Just begin to start Post author

    Yeah, it's true, you don't have to wait to start to live, when you have money, What can i do?
    I don't have nothing, just pages and pages of poems, one guitar, paits and colors.
    But no-one knows me, 'cause i live in the ass of jesus.

    But good man, congratulations, RIP.

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